Month: May 2024
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Of unpathed waters, and undreamed shores
Borders, boundaries, limits -everywhere I turn there are constraints. Of course some are more penetrable than others: doors can be opened, ladders can be climbed, people can be persuaded. Here and there, are immutable, but perhaps only because neither have actual boundaries -just mental ones: clouds that shift like the horizon as you move… Still,…
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Alone and palely loitering?
Although it seems a lifetime away, I sometimes try to cast my mind back to the thoughts that used to occupy me when I was young; when the world was still magical, and potentially infinite, things were different -or so they seem to me now, as I peer through the shower of my falling leaves.…
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It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves
I’m embarrassed to admit that with truly difficult either/or decisions, I still find myself defaulting to a coin toss. It allows me the luxury of accepting or rejecting the result. To me, that seems fair and impartial; it’s hard to attribute an agenda to the coin. And unlike even well-meaning advice from friends, it neither…
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Is Old Age worth it?
I realize that at my time of life, I should be grateful that I still exist; that there’s a me rather than simply a him -a memory registered however tenuously in those friends who are still able to remember things. Of course, I hasten to add that I am grateful that, so far at any…
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Seek not for whom the bell tolls
Do you ever put something away for safe-keeping, only to find it has changed in the interval since you last looked? Retirement can be like that: hanging a once comfortable identity in a closet somewhere, and discovering it no longer fits when you try it on for old times’ sake. Not only that, but the…